stress

I don't understand why i draw. Maybe i start to get bored of drawing. Slept for at least 12 hours in a day because i scare to draw. I scare the moment when im awake i have to draw. I use to have life like this, wake up - college - back home - assignment - sleep. See, all the time im facing is draw. I've been thinking all the way, what job can i do when im graduate. None. The classmates having their own dreams to become a concept artist, an illustrator. But i have no dream. I just always think of after graduate i have to go back kuantan to stay at there till i die. No doubt, i love there coz my family stay at there. So what for im studying now? My drawing skill are sucks. Work get rejected, and i scare of attend the class. I scare whatever i pass up, i get reject. Then i have to redo again, and if not i will fail. My imagination are sucks, i don't understand why im in illustration this course. Compare to classmates and senior's work, i can jump from 20 floor. My color sense are like color-blindness. The acrylic i use the whole night also cant get the right color. At the end, i lied to myself that i have serious sick to sleep earlier. I always gave myself stupid reason. So end up i didnt attended the class. And so lucky the class canceled that day and everyone got fuck up coz they stayed awake the whole night just to finish the piece of acrylic. I have no art sense. The photograph i took for the class always get rejected as well. (why i always get rejected? coz im sucks) We went to Melacca for the photography field trip. End up when i checked back the 600+ photos i taken, realize that none of the picture suit to the title that lecturer gave us. And end up i still haven take photo for the title color and reflection. Why i have to live like this? I don't fucking understand.

I just so stress.

I just so sucks.

乐

脸颊范红眼眶飙泪 嘴里边大喊妈边大笑

其实心里是有多么的害怕

每每坐这些刺激的 就会胡思乱想

可能那么的不幸运 我的坐位坏了 那我不是飞出去？

三百六十度旋转 好吧，第一次也是最后一次的说

我算是在娱乐大家吧

最终睡了十四个小时

想必我们六个人大家都一样吧

全身腰酸骨痛 肩膀酸痛

啊 是很不想做功课

可是功课是多到一个境界

谁叫我们贪玩的跑去双威水上乐园

还是要多谢太阳公公

因为不知躲到那儿去了

一整天的天气是好到爆

星期三会是 ： 马六甲你好

fugly

yummy chocolate

title : split complementary

media : Ps cs4 with intous 4

Abit rough, no, is super rough for this piece cz im so sleepy that time. Especially for the background, owhhhh, so fugly.

Quite sad because of parents ffk me for not coming by today. But still, i cant wait for their arriving tomorrow. Going to have movie session RED later. Been some time didnt watch movie with the buddies, excited X)

Exploration week mode on : sunway lagoon on monday and melacca field trip on wednesday. wheeeeee~

2010

happy 2010 2010 2010

20 : 10 20-10-2010

xoxo

五

星期五的夜晚，乖乖待在家看戏

the notebook, 很久以前就想看的戏 最近才跟朋友拿到

有感动到 结果就一个人傻傻对着电脑哭

很好笑吧，不过还是习惯了

偶尔会在我房门外听到一个女生疯狂的笑声

就知道我又在看周星驰的戏了

不然就是哭声吧

就知道我又被哪一部戏感动到了

其实今天是很想去唱下k

发泄一下最近功课上的压力

可是朋友们都好像不愿意

就算了吧

睡觉去

只想对你说声生日快乐

p.s. i love you

exhausted

Title : analogous

Media : photoshop cs4 with intous 4

*10 hours work with in between facebooking eating naping*

Totally exhausted after finish this piece of marker render. Slept at 6am in the morning, WTF. Have to rush acrylic later, estimate 4 hours for minimum since it is just an A4 size painting. But still, i think i need more time cz my speed is slow =(

Okayy, take a nap first before start my last minute work :D

supper

KFC for supper, hmmm. But after eat, i was like WTF, so fat larh! Should quit supper start tonight, super unhealthy and fat. I can feel the FATS growing slowly on my skin, OMG.

Yes, im FAT.

Sorry yamchar kaki, i wanna quite supper, for serious one.

痛

胃痛 肚子痛 经痛 傻傻份不清楚

只知道痛了一整晚

我要妈妈 =(

你不知道我的痛

10 10 10

一零一零一零快乐 :D

迟睡的关系，额头开始冒豆豆了， 啊～～～～

不知吃了什么垃圾食物导致我嘴旁范红，再来，啊～～～～～～

今天起早睡早起吧 :(

so sick

sports car

medium : acrylic on canvas

One of my assignment of illustration 1. My rendering skill is sucks, erm so do my painting.

Have been burn the midnight oil for few days. I know, 3 or 4am sleep time is normal for a TOA student. For my-not-TOA friends, they think that we are ki siao. So recently i practicing the normal sleep time as a TOA student, at least 330am only sleep. Fuck that, i need sleep larh TOA. But thursday night, i sleep for only 4hours because of this shit (sports car). 630am sleep and 103oam woke up and continue the final touch up. Its like OMFG, i slept after half an hour i heard the malay praying sound!

I suppose to go back home and rest after class which is 5pm (i admit that im weaker than other people and im suffering on the woman menstrual cycle shit on this day so i need rest) but me and friends went to ikea to buy some stuff and of course have the meatball, yum yum. After that, i super duper fan jian and watch p.s. i love you on my macbook.

Okay, back to the title, so im sick =( Feel so guilt for my health, coz i didnt take care of myself. Have to start taking alot of vitamins and fruits. Keep sneezing keep keep sneezing.

Im a super duper extreme most greatly tremendous extra ultimate outermost fattie. I NEED DIET!

p.s.

p.s. i love you

i will always love you

cupcakes

This is the cupcakes i talked in previous post. I feel like eating them whenever i draw them, especially at the night time when im starving like hell. Btw, this is the marker rendering assignment for my marker visual subject. Monochromatic CUPCAKES :D oh mama, i want to eat dessert so badly!

Media : photoshop cs4 with intous 4

hiar cut

My jiu-pai cant see the eyes smile

..and ignore the background..

Have to admit that every time i cut my hair, the result are not much different compare to before. HAIhhh.. But i still satisfied coz my bangs are shorter now.. weeee~

蛋糕

生病好像离我不远

对着杯子蛋糕好久

对他产生食欲是免不了的事

我要吃杯子蛋糕！

其实什么甜点我都好想要吃 :(

来吧，谁要带我吃蛋糕去？

cats

i need a gun to shoot over the non-stop meowing cats!

they are so fucking noisy all the time!

I HATE CATS/KITTEN okay, whatever, is the same